Hi! I have just started writing because I am exhausted. During last month I have been "studying" for my engineering exams. It is supposed that a third-year engineering student should be responsible, but it is not my case. I have lots of things in my head, except my studies. I spent last month studying inefficiently because I was thinking about the business I want to carry through (I will write about it) or watching series like Breaking Bad, funny videos or porn. Anything was good enough to keep my mind away from my tasks. I have been wasting my time because I did not want study but I could not go out because I would feel bad about it. It is really strange. My mind knows clearly what I have to do, but without motivation I do not find the force to do it. I feel like a child. I have been irresponsible and stupid. I have been wasting the thing I appreciate most, my time.
Now it is 01:00 AM and I am wondering what is going to happen tomorrow, is my last exam and today I have been doing almost nothing. I recognise I am very lucky with my exams. I have passed all my exams of first and second year, and some of them without effort. That is why I am too relaxed in my third year and why I am not passing all the subjects in June. However, I have to think positively about tomorrow. I will do my best in the exam and I will try to pass against all odds.
Good night.
